Alone in this world

Felix is sleeping again. Thank god. Some times when he is awake I enjoy him so much; his every move, his every look, his every babble delights me. But then some times I just can't even function around him. Like tonight. He is sitting below me
When I came home i think I was so overwhelmed by the baggage of my day, the grand old mess of my week, the sky will not stop pissing. R---, my grand old sig.. other does what he does so well, packs up and utters 'gotta step out'. I get so overwhelmed with lonliness I a can nolonger hold it together. I remember what Karen said to me once 'We are all just alone in this world'. No matter hard we try to surround ourselves with friends, family and loved ones we are just alone in this world.

Alone in this world

Felix is sleeping again. Thank god. Some times when he is awake I enjoy him so much; his every move, his every look, his every babble delights me. But then some times I just can't even function around him. Like tonight. He is sitting below me
When I came home i think I was so overwhelmed by the baggage of my day, the grand old mess of my week, the sky will not stop pissing. R---, my grand old sig.. other does what he does so well, packs up and utters 'gotta step out'. I get so overwhelmed with lonliness I a can nolonger hold it together. I remember what Karen said to me once 'We are all just alone in this world'. No matter hard we try to surround ourselves with friends, family and loved ones we are just alone in this world.

Confidence crisis.

Felix is sleeping in the other room and I am thinking, watching 'Ugly Betty', wishing for a rock, an anchor, someone to pull me back in. A fortune cookie I opened today said 'look to elder for advice when in a confidence crisis', So much is going on that I can not even elaborate. I have no faith in anything. I don't trust anyone. And also who knows who is Googling. They, those Googleer may see something incriminating. My profile has been viewed 284 times.

Messed up

So I here I am. I messed up. To all of you who are reading this I messed really badly.
You know I realized that maybe all these dozen and dozens of job interviews that I have gone on over the years have never come to any fruition because they may have googled me. Damn. Well I have two job interviews on Friday.
Today I was speaking with my brother in Africa and he really drilled in the fact that I messed up. I can't even talk about it hear because potential employers maybe googling me. I even tried to take my last name out of the profile and still when I googled myself this blog shows up. I can not believe that I used to complain about my lack of web presence. Shoot. Well I have a case at work were a woman is consistently making bad choices with men. This resulting in a decade long battle with child welfare. Am I in that league? I doubt it but my choices have not put me in no the greatest position. Why am I in this position that I am in? Because i make bad choices? Isn't he cute? Looks like that diaper is on a bit tight? He is active and has a lot of teeth. I really really love him. He brings order. I really appreciate him.